Welcome 2010

We rang in the new year very quietly this year.. watching movies in our apartment and then going to bed 30 minutes later. Not very exciting to most, but just the way we like it. I have been looking at all my Facebook friends and seeing all the new resolutions for the new year and new decade and wonder, "What will I do this year?" I've always been really good at making new year resolutions. My downfall has always been keeping them. I find that when I make these resolutions, you know, the ones that we always make every year: lose weight, eat better, be a better person, etc, I quickly become discouraged and feel like a failure within a couple of days after snacking on some potato chips and by the end of January my resolutions are a thing of the past and long forgotten. So, I believe that I have come up with a new way of making resolutions that will keep me always striving to achieve, but not make me fall to the floor and curl up in a ball feeling like a failure. Some may look at this as a pessimistic way of making changes or a way to cheat in some way or another, but I look at it as being realistic. I have a family, a job, and projects going on that may sometimes require more attention on any given day or week. The kids or myself may be sick, work may be extra busy or stressful at times, my husband's work schedule or traveling may not permit me to get to some things. That's life and sometimes you just have to go with what life throws at you. So, having said this, here are some things that I will TRY to work on this year.

1. I will try to make better food choices for not only myself but for my family as well. However, because we are busy with school and work, I will not feel like a horrible wife and mom if we order pizza a couple times a month.

2. I will attempt to go to the gym at least 3 days a week but will be happy if I make it at least 10 days out of the month. However, I will also keep in mind that work, kids, and illness may get in the way so I will not cry and go eat an entire carton of ice cream if I don't make it 3 days a week. Even if I only make it 2 days a week or 8 days a month, it's still better than what I did this past year.

3. As for being a better person.... this has always been sort of vague. Who determines what makes a person better and who makes the call of whether or not you are better or worse than you were before? Is it being what other people want you to be and is that necessarily better for you or for others? And since we are human and are always changing with the world around us, I think that for me, knowing and admitting that I am an emotional person who is driven by my emotions will be a start. So, because I am emotional, I will try not to let my emotions make my decisions for me or let them make me a reactor to things in life. This does not mean that I have to start to become less emotional, but I will try to pause and let my brain and emotions compromise on what is best for me and my family. Sorry outside world... that may mean that I may not be the better for you.

4. I will remain an honest person, but will try not to be brutally honest :)

and lastly, since I don't want to overwhelm myself or others,

5. I will try to update my blog more consistently. I know I will not be an everyday poster, or even an every other day poster, but I will try to do it at least once a week, if life permits.

Happy New Year from the Kovar Family :)